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Wow.

I just came back here after a really long time and was greeted by "Deviant for 15 years."

Wooow.

To be honest I pretty much lost the artist in me for a long time. It's been almost 10 years since I've last posted anything. I don't know what it was about growing up, but it surely has a lot to do with watching less and less anime. Most of my content was Naruto, Bleach, Fruits Basket etc inspired fan art, and that was the style I got so used to drawing, and then when I didn't watch it anymore, the inspiration just stopped.

Also around that time I was really insecure about what I wanted to be, and what other people that I looked up to thought I should be. I have always been very sensitive, and looking back I took it way too personally when some adults in my life hinted that making art is nice and all, but not anything that really matters or that would get me anywhere. So I slowly stopped altogether and lost the spark that made it so fun for me to begin with.

Now I have slowly started drawing and painting again, and it's so much fun. I still get really insecure and frustrated about it sometimes but when I get the right feeling, it just feels so freaking good to express what is in my head.

Watching my old artwork makes me laugh so much. I pretty much have the same sense of fart-humor still, but I wouldn't necessarily do everything the same way now than I did back then. But every piece holds a dear memory and I don't want to delete them. They're like a diary of some sort.

I also think it's also really funny that I don't get some of my old jokes anymore since I don't remember what they referred to.

I'll hopefully be posting some of my newer drawings in the near future. But I'm sure you will understand that it's pretty different from what you're used to seeing (if anyone of my old followers is still there! ) I remember this community as really supporting and positive, and that's a thing that I've missed the most. Damn I'm getting really sappy.

But yeah, well that turned into a really long story! So now I'm 31 years old and I live in Espoo Finland with my partner Jussi. I'd have a Cockerspaniel if he wasn't allergic to dogs. (Not bitter or anything lol) And I just became an aunt also, I love the little boy so much.

That's all for now! Love you. Keep being artsy fartsy. It's the best.

Hanna / 2.11.2020